came back home from michelle jiejie house .
went to michelle jiejie house there , was having a great time there .
after that , don't know why mother want go tampines ikea there .
than me michelle jiejie and our mothers went there .
me and michelle jiejie was at ikea playing .
mothers at giant buying clothes all these .
after that must meet parents , went to took bus and went back to tampines mall .
went to swensen {don't know how spell} ate there .
but i only ate ice cream , because i have no apetite .
-.- mother kept scolding me for nothing , then at last i felt really hurt .
feel like dying , i cried out .
let mom see , she kept scolding me .
== you thought i want cry give you see ar ? is can't control der ok .
then i cried out , without sounds .
because i don't want to let anyone know that i'm actually crying .
than mother kept scolding me blaming me for nothing .
i'm thinking of dying , thinking of standing in the middle of the road .
and let the cars and vans bang down .
i can't stop thinking of it , and suddenly change my mind .
think of i'm in school at the rooftop looking down .
the wind is making me feel so good , feel like jumping down .
kept thinking , i forced myself not to think .
and when i think of my friends , parents relatives .
i really wanted to cry out loud , but mother was there .
don't dare to , i forced myself not to cry out again and again .
and this makes me feel akward .
i'm really hurt hurt hurt .
